jan 2nd, 2020

blots in my eyes keep getting weirder n shit. trying to smoke it out but its just not working really. i don't know, i should stop worrying.

hallucinations also got a bit more frequent. started seeing this weird cat thing? reminds me a lot of my old cat. i call it petal.

it talks to me, kinda. i mean, i don't see its mouth open or whatever, but still. it feels nice to talk to something that i created? i don't know.

therapy session again in a couple of days. kinda venting about how jessica treats me and shit to petal. i don't even know if its listening.

i kinda see petal as a small "my lesbian experience with loneliness" type thing? is that weird? i don't know man. i'm going to bed.